In Love with the Inverse of Positive

Close your eyes to prevent it from seeping in

So pretty but
Deadly upon impact
Shattered glass
Was the aftermath of our bad math
It could been the best we never had
I wanted to ace the test we never had
Never to think your heart's guardian would hurt you so bad
Confusion and endless bliss
But I'd rather feel this than nothing at all
I'd rather feel big sometimes than to always feel small
I'd rather fall hard once than to never had at all
Because its beautiful when he's in my sight
Like utopia, o’ so right
And too much love overflows into a fight
But kisses were made to be used when words become superfluous
So we tongue wrestle until we forget that in this situation we chose to settle
Indian giver, I want to take back my heart
But my emotions don’t know where to start at
He has the most beautiful broken promises
And immaculate neglect
But his actions my mind won't reject
I just continue and hope our love will some day resurrect,
I have a hypothesis like a school science project
Two perfect specimens in the right place wrong time
But my senses loved him long time
Hard to separate the aspect
Because friendship, we have long surpassed it
In love with my friend and I desire more with my lover
Extremely hard thing to attempt to recover
Because I forget it all under the comforts of his covers....